Dead soul

Crawling in my skin


These wounds, they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

Confusing what is real



There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface

Consuming, confusing

This lack of self control I fear is never ending

Controlling



I can't seem

To find myself again

My walls are closing in

I've felt this way before

So insecure

Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me

Distracting, reacting

Against my will I stand beside my own reflection

It's haunting how I can't seem.



To find myself again

My walls are closing in

I've felt this way before

So insecure



Crawling in my skin

These wounds, they will not heal

Fear is how I fall

confusing what is real



There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface

Consuming, confusing

Confusing what is real

This lack of self control I fear is never ending

Controlling

It starts with love



One thing

I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

Keep that in mind

I designed this rhyme to explain in due time

(All I know)



Time is a valuable thing

Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings

Watch it count down to the end of the day

The clock ticks life away

(It's so unreal)



Didn't look out below

Watch the time go right out the window

Tried to hold on, but didn't even know

I wasted it all just to

(Watch you go)



I kept everything inside

And even though I tried

It all fell apart

What it meant to me

Will eventually be

A memory

Of a time



I tried so hard

And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter.



I had to fall

To lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter.



One thing

I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

Keep that in mind

I designed this rhyme to remind myself how I

(Tried so hard)


In spite of the way you were mocking me

Acting like I was part of your property

Remembering all the times you fought with me

I'm surprised (It got so far)



Things aren't the way they were before

You wouldn't even recognize me anymore

Not that you knew me back then

But it all comes back to me(In the end)



You kept everything inside

And even though I tried

It all fell apart

What it meant to me will eventually be

A memory of a time when I



I tried so hard

And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter



I had to fall

To lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter



I put my trust in you

Pushed as far as I can go

For all this

There's only one thing you should know



I put my trust in you

Pushed as far as I can go

For all this

There's only one thing you should know



I tried so hard

And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter



I had to fall

To lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

Coming back to life

Where were you when I was burned and broken


While the days slipped by from my window watching

Where were you when I was hurt and helpless

Because the things you say and the things you do surround me

While you were hanging yourself on someone else's world

Dying to believe in what you heard

I was staring straight into the shining sun



Lost in thought and lost in time

While the seeds of life and the seeds of change were planted

Outside the rain fell dark and slow

While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistible pastime

I took a heavenly ride through our silence

I knew the moment had arrived

For killing the past and coming back to life



I took a heavenly ride through our silence

I knew the waiting had begun

And headed straight..into the shining sun

Nothing I've Ever

Right now I feel - just like a leaf on a breeze

Who knows where it's blowin'

Who knows where it's goin'

I find myself somewhere I - I never thought I'd be

Going round in circles

Thinking about you and me

How do I expalin it when I don't know what to say

What do I do now - so much has changed

Nothing I have ever known - has made me feel this way

Nothing I have ever seen - has made me want to stay

but here I am - ready for you

I'm turnin', I'm fallin' - I hear my home callin'

Hey - I've never felt somethin's so strong - oh no

I'ts like nothing I've ever known

Now you're the one I'm looking for

You're the one I need

You're the one that gives me - a reason to believe

Following a star - has lead to where you are

It feels so stong now - this can't be wrong now



I WILL ALWAYS RETURN

I hear the wind call my name

The sound that leads me home

It sparks up the fire - a flame that still burns

To you I'll always return

I know the road is long but where you are is home

Wherever you stay - I'll find a way

I'll run like a river - I'll follow the sun

I'll fly like an eagle - to where I belong

I can't stand the distance - I can't dream alone

I can't wait to see you - Yes I'm on my way home

Now I know it's true

My every road leads to you

And in the hour of darkness darlin'

Your light gets me through

You run like a river - you shine like the sun

You fly like an eagle

You are the one I've seen every sunset

And with all that I've learned

Oh it's to you - I will always return

OPTIMISM...

All those moments will never be lost in time,
like marbles in the rain,
all those flares will now
turn dreams to stars that will always glow.
If only it were the last time for dreams to burn out...

If only I could wish for my next life,
i wish to be born into my family again and again
coz i know i aint all alone...I have no fear,
fear to see pain melting away with tear coz i know i am here for a reason...
If only this life were the last one to live...

For the painting should be so bright ,it can never fade...
& if its the last time for the brush,
let the spills never flow away with the memories
always to fill in the eyes of a doll.
coz it aint the last time for the doll...

Always open windows never winced,
the sun outside brighter like never before,
the gliding steps already stunned
the silence is just a sign of fresh start.
coz It aint the last wait for the corridor...

I don’t know how many seconds are left
of my millennium: But it isnt the last
flutters of the melting wax.
I’ll make them as powerful as a falcon with my lively smile, waiting for you all my life.
but It is not the last breath of the millennium...

A kiss I know was unreasonable
may be it was not the last for it.
Tears can never compensate your place,
kissed me all over & loved me till all was wet,
for it was not the last time I got sweat...

i know life will open up eyes again,
wished to live the emotions of each second,
breath in all the fumes and let the candle burn again.
do come anyday & knock on this door.
As My door is always open...

If only I could be free
free from guilt for the last time
guilt of not expecting.
I can always wait for it to happen.
Come & kiss me as if it were the first time....

QUATER LIFE CRISIS

They call it the 'Quarter-life Crisis.' It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as u. You look at your job...and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

You miss the comforts of college... of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all. You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and don't want in life.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap.

Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself.....and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it.

We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.